Sunday, December 11, 2016

HOPE


Hope....What is it?  Where does it come from?  How do we keep it once it is found?

This is something that I have been thinking about for awhile.  Why do we have hope in times when it seems there is no possible way of finding it?  Where do we get it from and how do we sustain those feelings of hope and peace?  

Jerry and I have not been publicizing some things that have been going on.  We have had several different reasons why we hadn't posted about it on the blog or on facebook, nonetheless, I am going to update you today..

Back in April 2016, Jerry had an MRI that showed very little tumor still in his scans.  You could barely see it.  In July 2016, he had another scan that showed some changes.  The changes made the area of the tumor more visible and concerned the Dr's.  (We were still somewhat in the dark at this point) The Dr. scheduled another MRI, which happened to be on the first day of school.  (Last year on the first day of school, Jerry went to the emergency room with symptoms which inevitably led to him having a severe infection...bad memory for us!) Anyway, this scan, in September, showed even more concern to the Doctor.  Jerry went to his appointment to discuss the results with his Dr. and was devastated at the news.  I was not able to be with him at this appointment, but his Mom was there with him.  The Dr. left him with little to no hope for anything good to happen.  He told him that surgery would no longer be an option for him,"if" this was tumor cells, there was not much more they could do other than continuing Chemotherapy as scheduled.  It "could" be good brain cells that were killed during radiation, but there is no way to know.  In my opinion, this Dr. needs to take some classes on "having a good bedside manner".  He left Jerry devastated, to the point that he wanted to make sure his affairs were in order.  It was tough for me to watch day in and day out and really not be able to talk about the situation to anyone because Jerry wanted privacy. He didn't want anyone to know the vast details and reality of the situation, which was grim.  He has appreciated the prayers along the way and all the support that we have gotten, but it also can be overwhelming, especially for a man.  When you have to rely on other people to care for your family it takes a toll on a man's spirit.  I think that is where Jerry was.  He wanted to care for his family and he didn't want anyone to think that he couldn't or wasn't able to.  I don't know about anyone elses husbands, but mine doesn't like people to know that he is "unable" to do something even if he shouldn't do it or simply can't do it.  This is more than a humility thing, it's more of an  "inner spirit" thing.   If he gave into his physical and mental challenges, then he felt as if he was giving up. Anyway, the Dr. upped Jerry's chemotherapy dosage and told him that they wanted him to have another MRI in November.  Jerry was given a new nausea pill and seemed to tolerate the higher dosage of chemotherapy a lot better than he had been, which was a concern for me and an answer to prayer.  
Jerry had his MRI this last Thursday.  I went with him to this appointment and prayed and prayed while he was in there asking God to give him a reason to keep fighting.  I could tell that Jerry was loosing some of his stamina to want to keep fighting.  
We sat in the patient room after his MRI waiting to see the Dr. to get the results and I think Jerry said to me several times "I feel like I'm going to throw up" because he was so nervous.
The Dr. he was seeing this time was not his normal Doctor, because he was out of town.  We had seen this Doctor before, but he was not Jerry's regular oncologist.  He came in with a "bright spirit" and a very positive attitude.  He showed Jerry and I the new scan which didn't look much different from the last one, in fact, the tumor area appeared slightly larger in size.  He was honest and said it did appear slightly larger, but he also said this....

  • I don't think it's tumor
  • I think its bruising from radiation
  • It still appears to be a low grade
  • If it was high grade, we would see other changes
  • Surgery is just as much of a risk as it was the first time you had it, definitely not out of the question.
  • If things get worse, there are always options
  • prognoses looks positive
  • Cancer research is continuously coming up with new ways to treat brain tumors
  • At Cancer Moonshot Summit, Vice President Biden announced new actions to accelerate progress toward ending cancer as we know it.

(Below is a link to that article, if you are interested)
Cancer Moonshot Summit Article


Ultimately, the results from the MRI were no different than they were before, in fact, they appeared worse.   What was different was attitude and hope.  This Doctor had a positive attitude.  Instead of pointing out what was no longer an option, he gave Jerry hope by telling him about several options if things were to progress.  He also made it clear that in his experience, and by what he was seeing, he did not believe this was tumor, he believes it is bruising from radiation.  Jerry and I both left this appointment feeling hopeful and happy.  

Why?  We were given hope, that's why.  I never really understood how someone else could shed a person on their hope, but it happened.  I would never have realized it was this particular Doctor's attitude had we not spoken to a different Dr.  It was so easy for him to steal Jerry's hope.  Makes me realize that in all aspects of our lives, we have great power over other people.  As a parent, we have a power over our children that is quite scary actually.  We have the power to help them become successful, well balanced, highly motivated individuals, or unsuccessful, improperly balanced, low self esteemed individuals who crumble in the midst of lives challenges.  So scary.....

I believe my attitude in the midst of my husband's battle could really impact him as well.   I look outside right now at the snow falling on the ground and I'm watching my husband, who is fighting brain cancer, facing challenges that most of us wouldn't be able to bear, is hard at work on a Sunday afternoon...because he has hope.  He has hope for tomorrow, he has a family that he loves and he wants to provide for.  I thank God for instilling this hope into the Doctor, and passing it on to us, because I believe that is where our hope ultimately comes from, God.  Today, that hope from God gives Jerry hope, which gives me hope........  



Listen to this song:


Thursday, June 16, 2016

It's Been a Long Year!

On April 22, 2016, Jerry had what we hope was his final surgery.  His surgery was successful in implanting his new prosthetic bone in his skull where his infected bone had to be removed.   This surgery went very well, and when Jerry left the hospital, he left with a new, nice looking skull again!  He no longer has to wear any protection on his skull to protect his brain.  This was very liberating for him.  It's obviously been a couple of months since that surgery (I apologize for not updating sooner) but we have been trying to live our life as normal as possible, at least our new normal :-) 

Jerry is still being treated with Chemotherapy one week out of every month.  Basically, Monday through Friday, every 4 weeks.  This is tough on him physically, but he still manages to function on most days like every other day.  He is a man that keeps working through his nausea and headaches,  because  he knows that he has to.  Jerry is self-employed and he does not have the luxury of going on disability  (no disrespect meant on this comment, but when you are sick, it's a nice thing to fall back on).  Maybe "luxury" isn't the right word, but please know that my intentions are just saying that people who are able to do this, I'm sure are very thankful to be able to spend their time focusing on their healing and not worrying about money.  Jerry continues to work to provide an income for our family.  To date, we have not been behind on any of our obligations financially.  This is largely due to the help we have received in addition to Jerry's continuous efforts to keep his business operating while he has been healing.   

Anyway, hopefully I came away from that comment with everyone completely understanding what I meant!!


Our kids have been champs through this.  The children that we have living in our home, who have been enduring this battle right along side of us, have all had very successful years at school.  I thank God for that, because I'm certain that I wasn't always as attentive as they needed me to be!  Our oldest daughter finished her Junior year in high school.  Our second daughter finished her freshman year in high school.  Our youngest daughter finished 5th grade.  Our son, had a very successful finish of Kindergarten.  
It was a year of a lot of changes in our home between Jerry's battle and me going back to work full time for the first time in 17 years.  Our kids and our family could not and would not have been as successful as we have been if we didn't have our community, our church families, and our families surrounding us with such an outpouring of love.  Things came at unexpected times, notes in the mail, flowers on our front porch, just gestures from people letting us know that they cared and they were thinking about us.  One organization that I would like to recognize is "Angels of Hope".  They are a wonderful non profit organization that helps families with cancer.  They helped us two different times over the last 5 years and they are also sending us to a Tigers game free of charge so that we can have a day to just "get away" from the cancer. If you are looking for an organization to donate to, please consider Angels of Hope.  We are evidence that they do what they say that they do and they do it with love and compassion!

 We were not able to thank each and every person, but we want you to know that we noticed and we continue to notice.  We are hopeful that our lives are beginning to get back to a more normal pace.  We have learned through our own experiences what people need as well.  If you are looking for a way to help a family who is battling something difficult.  Please feel free to contact me and I will let you know what we found most helpful.

Today, June 16, 2016 brings thankfulness in my heart.  My daughter is almost 18 and I remember it was at this time, 5 years ago that we first discovered Jerry's tumor and we spent her 13th birthday in a hospital waiting room waiting to find out the results of Jerry's biposy.  It's been a long year, it's been a long 5 years!!!!!!  We are thankful for every moment, every triumph, every discouragement, every battle, because we know that each moment has made us a little stronger and a little closer to understanding God's grace and love.  We are loved by so many and we are loved by our heavenly father and we are loved by each other.  What more could we really ask for?  Really?  We could have more things, complete health, more money...and the list goes on and on.  What we have is our very own perfect, not so perfect, life.  My husband often says to me that he feels bad that I married him and then have had to go through all of this.  It makes me almost angry when he says that because I wouldn't ask to be anywhere else.  I love him.  With love, comes no boundaries.  When you truly make a vow, and you are 100% certain that you are suppose to give your life to the person that you marry, you do it!  You do it with no hesitation.  

I will continue to update this blog as Jerry continues on this life long journey.  
Thank you for reading this and giving me an outlet to just "vent".  I'm no scholar, and certainly not an English major, so please forgive me for my typos and grammatical errors!!

-Lyn



This is Jerry before his surgery to put prosthetic bone in.  If you look closely, you can see indent on the right side of his skull next to his arm.



This is Jerry after surgery.



This is our two youngest with Jerry after he came home :) 



This is Jerry with our two oldest daughters in May as they are leaving for a banquet.

Next to preaching, this is Jerry's favorite thing to do, he is on guitar, and myself on keyboard, along with our worship team at church doing what we love, leading worship.



Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Everyday is a gift, a lesson and often a blessing....

I was a stay at home mom for 17 years, and this past fall, I started working "almost" full time.  I work about 32 hours a week and sometimes more if I'm needed.  For the last week, we have had 3 "snow-days" as well as two additional days off school for "Winter Break".  Because I work for the schools, I have received the same "snow-days" my children have.   I have quickly realized why kids are better off at school all day and not at home.  My two teenagers rarely leave their bedrooms and my two younger ones who "love" to play together cannot stop fighting.  I am thankful that God guided me to a wonderful job/career because I definitely believe that my time as being at home all day with children is over.....

Their is a purpose in me sharing that.  I will get to that later.


These last 6 months feel like a few years, not months to me.  It seems as though there has been so much change and so much going on in our lives, that if we blink, we might miss another day.  Today, I was thinking about the sermon I heard on Sunday by the Pastor from my childhood church that I visited this past weekend.  He was referring to his sermon topic, which was on forgiveness, but he mentioned "journal-ing" and how it can really help you heal and move forward when you journal.   I though to myself, "that's what my blog is for, to help me!"  Then I thought about how little I've written in it lately.  Life has fully consumed me to the point that I haven't been doing very many things very "normal" these days.  Even things that I shouldn't be putting off, like balancing our check-book or my husbands business "check-book".  

Today, I have decided to update the blog, but when I started, I had no idea what I was going to write about.  Did I want to write about how Jerry has been feeling very ill these last few days, he is loosing weight, not eating much, and fighting a "bug" that his body seems to be too weak to fight.  Or did I want to talk about how my husband, who is in the middle of the biggest physical battle he has ever been through, threw me a surprise birthday party over the weekend because he wanted me to feel "special" in the midst of our chaotic life. 

What I have decided to write about is simply how every day that we are given is truly a gift that should never be taken for granted.  The days that your kids won't stop fighting or your husband leaves his clothes on the floor for the 1028th time, or the dog hair is in your cereal, etc...etc... I'm sure you get the idea.  One thing that people have said to me over the last 6 months is how I have inspired them or how "I'm amazing", and I honestly don't get it.  If anyone was given the life that I have, so many would be doing the same thing I am doing and many would be doing so much more.  I've been given a "life" and I am dealing with the hand I have been dealt.  I have no choice but to move forward and live each day as God leads me to live it.  I believe that God has a hand on our situation and on our lives because we have invited him to be part of it.  He has not caused it, he cannot prevent it, but he is working in it and will work with us and the Dr's and we ask him constantly to help us get through each day.  We have seen God work many different ways over the last several months.  We have received a tremendous amount of financial help, we have received gifts of food and pantry items, we have received a free house cleaning, a tremendous amount of support through prayers, hugs and well wishes.  Satan has tried to work as well, he has tried to taunt me with the people who have shown little to no compassion for Jerry, myself or my family during our struggle, people who we thought cared more than they really do.  He has tried to get us to focus on those one or two relationships who have lacked empathy instead of focusing on the literally hundreds who have shown us so much more than we could have ever imagined.  In the end, I choose to see God and I choose to see the blessings and gifts and I try to pray for those who do not know the hurt they have caused.  Another gift/lesson I have received through this journey;  To pray for those who hurt me.  

"But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you."
Matthew 5:44

So, in the beginning of this blog, I was talking about my children and basically how they are driving me crazy being home so long.  At the same time, I know the two older ones will soon be gone and out of my home instead of just in their bedrooms and before long my 11 year old will be in her room all day instead of constantly asking me to "snuggle" with her after a long day when I want space to myself, and my 5 year old will soon NEVER ask to crawl into my bed again at 3 o'clock in the morning, and one day, my husband may not be around to leave his clothes lying on the floor anymore.  The truth of the matter is that these things still drive me crazy, but I really wouldn't want them to change.  Changing one thing about a person or situation can truly change who they are in so many different ways.  This situation that my husband is in and ultimately our family is in has been life changing.  Every day is still just another day, but I consciously try to be thankful for each moment, good and bad.  The things I have learned have brought me to a new place of closeness with God.  A new understanding of what we, as Christians, are suppose to be doing in his name.  And I have learned how to pray from a deeper, more intimate part of my being - a part that I let no one else see but God.

I dont' know what the furture holds, but I know who holds the future.  I know that with God by our side, we will be ok.  No matter the outcome.

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans proper you and not harm you, to give you hope and a future" 
Jeremiah 29:11

"I am the resurrection and the life.  The one who believes in me will live, even though they die; and whoever lives by believing in me will never die."
John 11:25-26

Update on Jerry's condition:
My husbands battle is far from "over".  We just had an appointment with his Neuro-oncologist yesterday and once he is fully recovered from his 6 week regimen of chemo and radiation (he finished Feb 10), he will start his chemotherapy again for 5 days every month.  This chemo will be a stronger dose than what he received during radiation.  He will do this for 6-12 more months.  He will also have another surgery to replace the bone flap that was removed, hopefully in early June.  He had an MRI last night for his new "base-line" and he will receive new MRI's every 2-3 months.  He is currently having a lot of swelling from the radiation which we believe is causing some numb-ness and tingling on his right side (his tumor is on the right side of his brain, which affects the left side of his body - he has weakness in his left arm/hand and in his face from his tumor) the fact that he is feeling some tingling on his right side is concerning, but we are hopeful that it is just from swelling from radiation.  We will find out more once his most recent MRI results are in.  



  

Saturday, November 21, 2015

Update since surgery

So, It's been awhile since I have posted, but that is because we have had a LOT going on.  
Jerry's original surgery went great, but on September 29, I took Jerry to the hospital after suffering from a fever, vomiting and severe swelling of the incision area.  Unfortunately, he ended up being diagnosed with having a STAFF infection and on Thursday October, 1st, he had a second surgery to remove the bone flap that was cut to remove the brain tumor.  The bone flap had to be discarded due to the infection.  For the last 7 weeks, Jerry has been receiving intravenous antibiotics through a PICC line at home.  This last week, he finally had the PICC line removed and he is ready to now move on to the next step of healing and recovery.  He will still need a 3rd surgery to put a new bone flap in, but they will not do that for a couple months because they want to make sure the infection is completely gone before they close in the brain again.  He has a cap with a hard shell in it that he wears when he is up and about to help protect his brain where there is no bone protecting it.  The next steps are to get started on Chemotherapy and Radiation therapy which will start within the next couple of weeks.  He will continue this treatment regimen throughout the Holidays, which makes me sad, but at the same time, because I work for a school district, I will be off work for a good 2 weeks, so it will be good for me to be home with him too!!  From what we know today, he will likely have Chemotherapy for a year for 5 days, every 28 days.  Probably in February, he will have the 3rd surgery to put his new "bone" in his skull which has a 4-6 weeks recovery process.  Our family had been planning a cruise for this spring, because our oldest daughter will be 18 this summer and we were hoping for a "last big family trip" before she was off on her own, but that is being put on hold now.  The kids are sad, but at the same time, they completely understand.  We had our kids conferences these last couple of weeks and they are all thriving in school and doing very well. I'm sure that is greatly attributed to people who have been helping us and keeping mine and Jerry's stress levels to a minimum!!   That is my short and sweet update for now.  Though we have been going through a lot, especially Jerry, God has been very evident in our lives.  We have had people bring us dinners, sent cards and get well wishes, financial contributions and so much more.  We are grateful for every act of kindness and I can't wait to be in the position to pay it forward!.  My perspective on it is so much different now than it was before.  Love you all and please continue to pray for Jerry as he has a long road ahead of him!!


After second Surgery:




Wednesday, September 2, 2015

He Can, He Will, but even if He doesn't.....

In August, Jerry preached at church referencing Daniel chapter 3 regarding the parable written about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.  He rephrased the parable in his own words and said "He can, He will, but even if He doesn't".  Jerry went into surgery on August 18, 2015 having complete peace with the outcome of the surgery, no matter what it was.  He is a man of great faith and he knew that no matter what, God was in control and that no matter the outcome, God would have a plan.  It was a little harder for me to think like he was at the time, as I did not want to think about loosing him or living life without him, but I did have a weird peace inside as well, knowing that Jerry was right with the Lord and if he did choose to take Jerry home, I knew Jerry would be experiencing his eternity, and I knew that he would be "happy". God can, God will, but even if he doesn't ran through my head so much on the day of his surgery.  I kept praying and asking God for this to be a time where "He did".  It's an unwavering feeling to not know if your ever going to see your husband alive again.  The moment as the Dr. and his staff was leaving, that moment when I could no longer walk along side his bed, that moment that I knew I had to say good-bye and tell him I loved him came, and that peace that surpasses all understanding came over me.  I looked at the Dr. and took his hand and I told him I would be praying for him during the surgery.  He was very kind and said that he was going to do the best he could.  Then they took the love of my life through those double doors...

I went to the waiting room of the hospital where my mom, Jerry's mom, Jerry's sister & boyfriend, and Jerry's brother all sat, there was an uncomfortable silence for a little while.  We were all scared to death, we were all worried, we were all in a place of complete surrender knowing that there was absolutely nothing we could do to potentially change the outcome that was going to take place that day.  We didn't know what it would be, but we knew that it was out of our hands. 

We were told that the surgery could take up to 14 hours.  They just have no idea what they will face until they "get in there" and start to dissect the tumor away from the good tissue in the brain.  The minutes, and hours started to tick by.  The staff at the hospital would come to us about every hour and tell us that everything was going well.  All of us in the waiting room started to loosen up, we started to relax and we started to enjoy the presence of each other.  We played a long game of "rummy" and I lost by a long shot!!  Approximately 7 hours into the surgery, the representative from the hospital came to me and said "They are finishing up and the Dr. will be out to see you soon". The thoughts and feelings that started to flood my mind in that moment were overwhelming.  I was thinking things like "They said this could take 14 hours, and they are done after 7, is he alive?  Did he Die during surgery?  The staff wouldn't tell us if something was wrong, they would just tell us to wait?"  I didn't say any of these things out loud, but boy was I thinking them.  I think everyone was.  Once again, there was an overwhelming "silence" that took over the room.  We were all waiting and wondering, but no one was talking.  Finally, I got up and started pacing the hallway because I couldn't just sit anymore.  It took about an hour after they told us they were finishing up before the Dr. came out.  He pulled us all from the waiting room and brought us to a private room....again, inconceivable thoughts and feelings were overwhelming my mind at this time.

  The Dr. spoke to us for about 15 minutes, describing in detail as much as he could about the process of the surgery.  I kept waiting for the "bad news" at the end of it all, but finally, he said...."He's OK, they will come and get you as soon as he is out of recovery"  At that moment, the huge block that was on my shoulders was lifted and I started to relax.  The moment that they told me I could go see him seemed like an eternity after that.  I remember walking into the room in the Neuro ICU and seeing him for the first time.  He looked good.  He was alive.  That's all I wanted, was for him to be alive.

The next few days, we learned more about his surgery.  We learned that the Dr had to stop the surgery once Jerry's left arm started being affected.  (Jerry was awake for the surgery so that the risk for paralysis was minimized, the Dr. communicated with Jerry asking him questions and watching certain functions to know what he could and couldn't touch in his brain, it was pretty amazing) We knew going into the surgery that Jerry would have a transient facial droop.  We also knew there was a chance he could be weak on the left hand side of his body.  Both of those things were exactly as the Dr. had predicted.  Jerry's speech was also affected, but today marks 2 weeks since his surgery and his speech has dramatically improved, in fact most people would not even notice it at this point.  We also learned that they could not remove the entire tumor.  We learned that the tumor was in fact cancer and that this type of tumor will always come back.  We learned that Jerry will have to undergo chemotherapy and radiation therapy after recovering from his surgery in hopes to "hibernate" the tumor so that Jerry can have many more years before the tumor comes alive again and affects his quality of life. Where we are today.....

Like I stated, it has been 2 weeks since Jerry's surgery.  We are back home and Jerry is recovering pretty much just like the Dr. had described to us.  He is very tired.  He still has some loss of function in his left hand.  We have scheduled him to started Neuro-therapy in a couple weeks so he can re-learn how to make his hand work again.  He is not paralyzed, he can move his hand and he can squeeze it very tight, there is just a disconnect where his brain is not telling his hand what to do properly yet.  He has made a lot of progress already though so I anticipate a positive recovery process.

Jerry will likely be off work for the rest of the year.  After he recovers from his brain surgery, he will start his chemotherapy and radiation therapy for 6 weeks.Today I want to thank Jesus for his love for Jerry.  I want to thank him for not taking him from me yet.  I was trying to be prepared for a different outcome, but it is almost impossible to do.  I'm thankful that I didn't have to go through something different.  He Can, He will and if He doesn't.I'm thankful that He did this time.

My prayer requests would be to help Jerry rest.  He is a very active person and this healing process is making him feel lazy.  His mind tells him that he is being lazy but when he tries to do something, he is so tired and gets wiped out very quickly.  I need him to rest.  I need him to be lazy for awhile.  I need him to give his body the time it needs to heal so that he can get back into his life once this process is in the past.  I need him to be OK with resting.

This is Jerry and I on the Plane before his surgery.

This is Jerry and I the day before his surgery



Jerry in the ICU after his surgery


His incision


Jerry and I  overlooking the San Francisco Bay while Jerry was recovering at the hotel before we were able to fly back home.


This is Jerry's incision after we were home before he had the staples removed.









Monday, July 13, 2015

Short Update

I just wanted to give a short update and let you know that we have heard back from the Dr. in California and it looks like Jerry will be moving forward with surgery sometime in the near future. The percentage of risk went from 25% - 30%, to 2%-4%  with the Dr in California.   Due to privacy and protection I will not be submitting the actual date of surgery on this blog.  Please continue to pray for Jerry's healing and for strength and peace for Jerry and for the whole family to get through this.

Psalm 29:11


The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Here We Go Again....

Where do I start?  I almost am embarrassed to say that Jerry and I have been living in a world of denial over the last 4 years, or at least, I have.  I can't really speak for him in that regards, because I believe every single night he went to bed, he knew he had a brain tumor.  He was the one taking non-traditional treatments everyday and often reading on them as well.  I, on the other hand, would forget about it from time to time and just go on living my life, raising my children and moving forward in this adventure we call "living".  Sounds good, right?

Well, a couple months ago, Jerry started having some symptoms from his Tumor.  He had what has been described by the Dr as a seizure.  Jerry didn't' really know it was a seizure at the time, but has since had another one and realized that it was in fact a seizure.  We have learned that the stereotypical seizure that people visualize is one where the person is on the floor and shaking (no disrespect intended towards anyone who experiences these-types of seizures) is not in fact the most common, in fact there are hundreds of different ways that people can have a seizure. Any way....Reality Check!

Jerry had never really "liked" or felt confident with the Dr. who he had originally seen at U of M, so we decided to seek out another Dr who we met in 2011 while receiving a 2nd opinion regarding his tumor.   This Dr. is from Henry Ford.

So, Jerry started the journey all over again, getting new scans, having the tumor board review the scans.  This time, there was a benefit because they were able to compare the growth over the last 4 years which was helpful in diagnosis.  So we get the phone call to come in to find out what direction they want to move in...

The words we heard were devastating.  "No Dr. Here or in the State of Michigan is qualified to surgically remove your tumor without taking significant risk of a stroke or something even more catastrophic"  "We do have another procedure that is less evasive, but the tumor will not be fully removed and it has actually never been done on a tumor of your size, it is called "Laser Ablation".

The words were so devastating to hear that we didn't know what to think or what to do.  One thing we did feel confident about was the decision we made 4 years ago to not allow the surgeon who wanted to operate. He was not as honest with us about the severity of this operation nor did he ever suggest another Dr who would be more qualified in that area of the brain.  So that, we are thankful for.

Where are we today?  Jerry has sent all his medical records and scans to two different Dr's that we were referred to who both specialize in this type of tumor located in this part of the brain.  One Dr is in Houston Texas and the other is in San Francisco California.  We were told that the Dr in California probably would be his best bet.   We are currently waiting to hear back from him.

The Anti Seizure medication the Jerry is on is making him feel awful everyday.  Please pray that his body will adjust to this medication and that he will start feeling more like himself very soon.

Thank you for your interest in our story and PLEASE pray for Jerry.
This Picture was Taken in May 2015