Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.
~ Hebrews 11:1,3
This is the scripture that Jerry has been reading over and over these last few weeks. Our dear neighbor sent this to us in a card, and I don't think she knew that it would be so impacting to Jerry and I. We both are familiar with scripture and we "know" what the bible says, but this scripture was very powerful to us. Jerry has been reading it every day.
Before our appointment today, Jerry kept saying "I think God is telling me to walk by faith, not by sight". I almost hated hearing him say that....cause I knew that if that were true, that if God was telling him that....that it meant that the tumor was still going to be there.
Well, Jerry had his MRI this morning. The tumor is still intact, and in fact, it appears to be slightly larger in size. While I was sitting quietly arguing with God about all the "Whys", Jerry sat there calmly discussing treatment options with his Doctor. When we left, I was quiet. Jerry went on to remind me that while doing his research on PROTOCEL, it did state that with Brain Tumors, the tumor may never actually disappear and that it may actually increase in size due to inflammation during the process of the cell's dying off period. Jerry said that it has only been 3 months on PROTOCEL, and he is confident in the treatment regimen that he is on.
Jerry plans to continue taking PROTOCEL every 4.5 hours, going one stretch of 6 hours during the night....24 hours a day, everyday.
"Father, help us to live by faith and not by sight. I recognize that faith is not my wishful thinking but an inward conviction that You will always do what You promise regardless of our circumstances. Through faith, we declare our weakness and at the same time proclaim the absolute trustworthiness of God and your complete and willing ability to do what we cannot. Help us, Lord, not to have foolish confidence in ourselves, but always look to You in every part of our lives. For You are always faithful, and I can count on You. Praise God, Amen."
(This prayer was also part of the card from our neighbor)