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MRI Results 6-2-14

Jerry had his MRI yesterday and it was a LONG day!!  It went about the same as every other MRI that he has ever had....Jerry is full of anxiety and worry, I am trying to be strong next to him, but in a panic inside as well.  We sit through the MRI and then wait the two hours to meet with his neurosurgeon to find out the results..  The Neurosurgeon said that the tumor has grown about 4 mm in the last 2 years.  He encouraged surgery or radiation.  He said that radiation does not necessarily extend life expectancy, rather extend symptoms from developing.  Surgery, in his opinion, could extend life expectancy.  This is what the Neurosurgeon told us a year ago (that it had grown), then when we received the radiology report, which is done by a Dr. trained to read MRI's, he said that it had not appeared any larger.  So...we are waiting to get the radiology report before we make any drastic decisions..

Jerry is doing some research right now with the Burzynski clinic again.  Apparently th…

Worry.....what is it worth?

Listen to this song if you can, while you read this blog...

June 11, 2014

I am feeling very overwhelmed this morning.  Life can get so crazy.  Life can bring us up and bring us down just as quickly.  People can be hurtful, and bring us pain, yet at the same time, people can bring us the most amazing amount of joy.

Over the last couple of weeks, my heart has been aching with worry.  I worry about my husbands physical and emotional well being.  I worry about how people treat him, how people love him or don't love him.  I worry about past regrets that never seem to quit haunting us. I worry that one day Jerry will have a seizure or even worse....things I won't mention.  Sometimes I look at what seems to be a very short life together (5 years married in October) and feel like I have already been with him for 30 years.  We have so much time together.  We spend every day together, we love each other in a way that I have never…