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Update since surgery

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So, It's been awhile since I have posted, but that is because we have had a LOT going on.  
Jerry's original surgery went great, but on September 29, I took Jerry to the hospital after suffering from a fever, vomiting and severe swelling of the incision area.  Unfortunately, he ended up being diagnosed with having a STAFF infection and on Thursday October, 1st, he had a second surgery to remove the bone flap that was cut to remove the brain tumor.  The bone flap had to be discarded due to the infection.  For the last 7 weeks, Jerry has been receiving intravenous antibiotics through a PICC line at home.  This last week, he finally had the PICC line removed and he is ready to now move on to the next step of healing and recovery.  He will still need a 3rd surgery to put a new bone flap in, but they will not do that for a couple months because they want to make sure the infection is completely gone before they close in the brain again.  He has a cap with a hard shell in it that he …

He Can, He Will, but even if He doesn't.....

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In August, Jerry preached at church referencing Daniel chapter 3 regarding the parable written about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.  He rephrased the parable in his own words and said "He can, He will, but even if He doesn't".  Jerry went into surgery on August 18, 2015 having complete peace with the outcome of the surgery, no matter what it was.  He is a man of great faith and he knew that no matter what, God was in control and that no matter the outcome, God would have a plan.  It was a little harder for me to think like he was at the time, as I did not want to think about loosing him or living life without him, but I did have a weird peace inside as well, knowing that Jerry was right with the Lord and if he did choose to take Jerry home, I knew Jerry would be experiencing his eternity, and I knew that he would be "happy". God can, God will, but even if he doesn't ran through my head so much on the day of his surgery.  I kept praying and asking God for …

Short Update

I just wanted to give a short update and let you know that we have heard back from the Dr. in California and it looks like Jerry will be moving forward with surgery sometime in the near future. The percentage of risk went from 25% - 30%, to 2%-4%  with the Dr in California.   Due to privacy and protection I will not be submitting the actual date of surgery on this blog.  Please continue to pray for Jerry's healing and for strength and peace for Jerry and for the whole family to get through this.

Psalm 29:11


The LORD gives strength to his people; the LORD blesses his people with peace.

Here We Go Again....

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Where do I start?  I almost am embarrassed to say that Jerry and I have been living in a world of denial over the last 4 years, or at least, I have.  I can't really speak for him in that regards, because I believe every single night he went to bed, he knew he had a brain tumor.  He was the one taking non-traditional treatments everyday and often reading on them as well.  I, on the other hand, would forget about it from time to time and just go on living my life, raising my children and moving forward in this adventure we call "living".  Sounds good, right?

Well, a couple months ago, Jerry started having some symptoms from his Tumor.  He had what has been described by the Dr as a seizure.  Jerry didn't' really know it was a seizure at the time, but has since had another one and realized that it was in fact a seizure.  We have learned that the stereotypical seizure that people visualize is one where the person is on the floor and shaking (no disrespect intended tow…

Super Bowl Sunday

Well, today is the "day after" the event that many people just can't wait for....Super Bowl Sunday.  I'm not "into" football, neither is my husband, but many of our family members are, so we enjoy the festivities and play the games, watch the commercials, the half time show...la de da.....

Today, I was looking on my computer doing some research in regards to my husbands brain tumor, calling a new Dr. for the FOURTH time, hoping this time they will call me back, checking with our insurance company to find out where we can go, and what hoops we have to jump through to try to get there...la de da....  This seems to have become a natural practice in our home anymore.  The wondering, the waiting, and the living life through it all.

What is hard for me, is not the acceptance of where we are, rather it is the acceptance of the fact that it is so hard to get what we need.  Or should I say what my husband needs....  People will pay Millions upon Millions to hold an …

Breaking Point

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Yesterday I had a weird kind of day.  I usually am pretty composed and do not think too much or too often about my husbands tumor.  That sounds bad, I know...but when you are living it, you learn to just "live" and not dwell on what you cannot do anything about.  But yesterday, well I had a "rough", weird kind of day.  I posted something on a social media page, and my intent was not to draw attention to my situation, rather it was an attempt to help people to understand that when someone is in need, to reach out to them, not just "offer" to reach out to them.  Anyway, the post blew up and people were private messaging me and offering me their services and prayers and well wishes, and it was quite overwhelming to be honest.  I actually didn't respond to everything until the next day because it was just "too much".  When my husband came to bed, he had no idea what I had been dealing with and I totally broke down.  I told him that I didn't …