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Busy Blessings....

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Jerry and I were able to spend some much needed time together this weekend.  Unexpectedly, we had no kids at home.  We just took some time to hang out together without the distractions of "life".  We had a wonderful time together reconnecting and just "being friends"  Towards the end of our time together we stopped at Bronners in Frankenmuth.  That is a beautiful store, but not the best place to go on a weekend, this time of year!  It was crazy in there!  We ended up getting a snack and walking around a bit but realizing that it was too crowded and the lines were too long and we needed to leave.  Jerry's legs get tired, and when they get tired sometimes they "give out".  So, I asked Jerry to hold my arm, (he can be stubborn sometimes, but he did need some help) and we headed back to the car and went home.  When we got home, he went straight to sleep and has been there every since.  It's been about 3 hours now.  I started getting really teary eyed …

Being the Hands and Feet of Jesus.

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Jesus healed the sick, loved the poor, touched the leper, stood up for the down-and-out, forgave the sinner, condemned the religious hypocrites, dined with prostitutes, and corrupt tax collectors, challenged the wealthy and powerful, fought for Justice for the oppressed, defied His culture, renounced materialism, demonstrated that greatness is found in serving - and then died that others might live. These actions - performed by one man - changed the world. These same actions, when carried out by His followers, still change the world today.
My world was changed today.

A friend of mine that I've known for about 3 months asks me almost daily, how I am doing and how my husband is doing. These last few weeks, I have expressed to her that I was just tired and overwhelmed. That my husbands energy level is less and less every week, every day. Especially on the weeks he is on Chemotherapy which happens to be this week. She asked me if there was anything she could do. I said the …

Thy Will Be Done

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Thy Will Be Done?  What does that mean?  What does it mean to you?  I'm not really sure anymore. I would like to say that my faith is always strong and that I always lean on that everlasting love, but that is not true.  I'm distracted A LOT!  Like this song says, "Sometimes I gotta stop and remember that you are God and I am not."

Over the last 4 months, I've felt a fog over me.  A deep, sorrowing, drowning feeling.  I put a smile on my face when I'm around others, and I continue to be the "keeper" of my family, but I feel like I am daily pulling myself out of a rut.  Sometimes I shout at God and ask him Why?  Sometimes I cry at the drop of a hat and wonder if God is even there anymore.  I wonder if he is listening or if all of the demons from my past prevent him from being able to hear me.

Then......

I sing, I play the piano, I listen to music.....and I am reminded that he loves me and that his sorrows are deeper than mine could ever be.  Music …

WHO HOLDS YOUR TOMORROW?

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I have had a lot of emotions going through me lately and the best way for me to deal with them is to write.  For some reason, it helps me to feel better when I talk about what is going on.  I don't have time to talk to a therapist or burden all my friends and family with conversations, so I write.... This way, people can listen if they want to, they are not forced to put on a smile and listen to me go on and on about my life while they are struggling with their own demons.  

So, if you have been following our story, you know that Jerry has been having several MRI's over the last year because the Dr's were seeing some changes.  There was no way to know what exactly was happening, so having MRI's often was the best option to figure it out.  Was it swelling?  Was it effects from radiation?  Was it good brain cells that were affected by the treatment?  What was going on?
At his last appointment, we received information to better explain what was happening because the MRI sca…